"I guess i'll just get it out now..." he said, "i love you. and i have for quite some time now. and it kills me to see you like this, worried over another guy. i want you to be worried over me. im sorry im putting this out here so fast, but i have to get it out. even if you get afraid of me, i don't care. i love you. im in love with you. you're beautiful and...just amazing. i cant imagine not being friends with you. i know what was missing now, and it was you. so, please, just...if you don't feel the same just leave,"
i blinked a few times, not understanding what i was hearing. did he just tell me he loved me? yes. do i love him? maybe. i needed time to think. but i was making him wait. i felt paranoid. what if it didn't work? i stared at the ground, now, sighing.
do i love him? maybe. do i love him? maybe. do i love him? ...yes, yes i do love him. so i looked up, tears in my eyes, and sniffed. he looked so confused.
and all i could do was hug him and sob. happiness overwhelmed me. he hugged me back, and i could tell he was smiling.
and even if it all went downhill from here, i didn't care. even if we werent meant to be, it was okay. because i was happy at that moment, and i felt as if everything was right.
and i cried because my ex-boyfriend was just a memory. he didn't matter anymore.
i had the boy in my arms, and its all i needed.
and i truely did love him.
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