getting lost.

had to get a new laptop charger.

went to best buy, avoiding traffic.

went to taco bell to go pee.

we got out of taco bell, thinking we were avoiding traffic, but when we turned on the highway we hit....TRAFFIC.

were there for like an hour. waiting.

called krystal cause i was bored.

took a detour. 

got lost...and went all the way to a far away town.

took 2 more hours but

finally got unlost(thanks to my directions) and came home.

how fun.

i am living.

after all these months, i am finally living.

hello everyone. it was a hot day today. too hot to function. my friend doesn't know that im angry at her. i dont feel like telling her, either. she wouldn't understand.

she SHOULD understand.

i wish they'd all understand.

whatever. its okay. 

i swear one of them is going to read this and im going to get all these questions like

"OMG IS IT MEE?"

no, it is not you. or maybe it is. you'll just have to find out by yourself. 

im doing better; or atleast i hope i am. i feel happier. and nicer. and calmer. thank you.

and you know, you could stop talking about yourself for just a moment. and relax.

i hope you don't think im talking about you.

and i hope you know who you are. 

i love you all.

and i love life.

and i love music.

and i love the fact my eyes remind me of mudkips.

bye bye.

where i've been

sunday;

went to the wake for Melissa's mom. was really sad, i ended up crying a little.

but then we went to a birthday party near a lake. 

there was a playscape and we scared all the little kids off of it (me and kaelie) 

then laid down and nearly fell asleep. it was so much fun.

we stood in the freezing water for a little, then went and ate cake and listened to roger's beautiful music.

aka; it horribly sucked, but it was hilarious.

today;

went to the church after missy's mom's burial and we sang christian songs and had a lot of fun

then ate food and hugged missy. :3

then we went to the mall and i got capri's for tomorrow because its supposed to be really warm.

im officially pissed at khols for having small sizes.

cause really, no one is skinny anymore. XD

we're so lucky to have people alive with us.

even if we have lost many in our lives, we gain all the time.

and even when the world is crashing all around you, your friends are there to help hold it up so it doesn't crush your face. :)

ily missy

sadness.

thats all im feeling today.

deep, deep feelings that cannot be explained.

what is wrong with me? i don't need to be sad? im not depressed.

i just feel so...

sad.

music..

http://www.myspace.com/danielphotopants

his music makes my heart hurt.

i love it.

im such a sad person. 

crawling under a rock sounds fun right now.

death

it really isn't funny, nor something you should look forward to.

don't wish death upon people.

life is something to cherish.

i know many people don't think of it that way.

even if you don't think anyone is going to miss you,

someone out there will.

life is amazing. love it, live it, cherish it.

bye.

im like telling everyone this.

         Language Arts 100.0

           Math lvl 7           100.0

Science            92.9

Western Trad. 100.0

            Spanish           n/a

Physical Ed. 60.0

and that is what you call WIN

holy snickerdoodles!

and THAT is how you create a snickerdoodle.

but now my belly hurts!

oh well, it was DEFIANTLY worth it.

"creativity blooms in small rooms"

but my imagination is larger than life.

hikki is currently;

rolled over in pain because of cramps

listening to panic at the disco

laughing at what a friend told her

looking at an im

and wishing she was back at school.

it keeps her mind off everything.

school tomorrow

vacation went by wayy too fast.

i think i've changed a lot. 

i can't wait until i get rid of most of my clothes and go shopping to get more. :]

i'll talk to everyone tomorrow.

or later.

whatever is best.

bye bye.

sticky note

so in the car i randomly had a wanting feeling.

so i wrote down two random thoughts.

have a good day.

oh and btww

i love this video more than life

straw

and i put this here because it was in my crayon box.

that is so, so weird.

opinions

My name may not be important to you, or it may, but whatever the case I am going to tell you. So you may be thrilled, or disgusted, but I do not care. My name is Katie, Katie Anderson, and I am 23 years old. Some say I am beautiful, but some say I look like I have been stepped on by a rather large horse. But I do not care about my looks because it is the inside that counts, or thats what all my teachers had told me in grade school. I also believe this because it seems no one is attracted to my appearance. Or maybe it is just that I do not pay enough attention to what people think of me to notice. But this does not matter anyway, because that is not the point of the words I am writing. You see, ever since I was a little girl, I always had my mind set on being the best. In preschool I would spend hours on my art projects, making the other young kids jealous of my work. In 3rd grade, I can remember how we did a project where we had to read the book Lady Lollipop and answer a packet of questions. On the first day it was assigned, I read the whole book and answered all the questions. I even made a posterboard for the book for extra credit. And now that I am 23 and I have a job, I am still focused on being the greatest. When I am assigned work, I am quick to get it done. I spend hours making changes on things that I have written. And for some reason, doing this makes people dislike me. I do not know why, for I am really not a bad person. Or maybe I am, but I do not pay enough attention to people's critisizm to understand. So I spend each and every day working, doing the best I possibly could. Well, I could do better I am sure, but I choose not to. I do not know why. The only friend I have now that I talk to is a woman named Angela Thompson, who has just turned 59. You may not care about this woman at all, and you may of stopped reading when you read her name, but I do not care. For I am only writing this for people who want to apprehend. Angela has many diseases, which she takes pills for. I will not tell you these ailments, because I do not think she would like this very much. But I will tell you that she has to take 34 pills every morning, and another 12 at night. She has many problems, as so do I, and so we discuss these botherations over mugs of tea. You my not like tea, or mugs, or botherations, but I do not care about your opinions, for I have my own. And you may not like the words I am writing, but I still do not worry about your assumption, because I have my own. So, the moral of this story, which you may not care about, or you may want to know very much, is that you should never do more than you have to all the time. The result of this will be people hating you more than they probably should. If you disagree, and think that people should always do more than told, then I do not care because we all have our own opinions, and some are awry and others favorable. Most of my opinions are right.

i don't know how i feel.

seeing her sad about him, makes me sad about him too.

i with things were different.

i want to be more creative.

maybe i'm finally finding the real me?

i don't know.

but today i went to the mall in an  outfit i would of never worn before.

and only because it's a football team t-shirt.

i might loose people in my life because of changes,

but i will meet more people, too.

i want to get out there, i want to leave.

sometimes i wish we would go broke and have to live on the streets because it'd be an adventure.

something new.

im a very adventurous person. :]

when im old and dying i want to have a story to tell people.

and i want to be remembered.

im becoming quite the nerd. i had an urge today to go to school to lean something new. maybe i'll just watch discovery channel. or the history channel.

why can't i drive yet?!

the past two days.

on sunday i went to my aunt karen's. for some reason, i love her house. though the driveway does cause a problem.

let me put it this way, when you're driving up it it still feels like you're going backwards.

so we had a nice dinner. cheap ham is always the greatest.

mother asked me if i wanted to try wine, haha. i said no though, of course. 

so then ruby came over. we played left 4 dead. and animal crossing. then we watched Clean House until we passed out. fun.

"find the special what?"

haha good times.

then today we woke up around 10 and played animal crossing until 10:30 then went and had chicken and fries for breakfast. yum. ;D

then we played left 4 dead.

then she left...

so now im here, bored, with no one on msn because there is school for them.

BORING. D:

is today tuesday? thats gross.

phobias.

bold = super uber phobia of mine

Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.

Agliophobia- Fear of pain.

Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects.

Altophobia- Fear of heights

Antlophobia- Fear of floods.

Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.

Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.

Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.

Batophobia- Fear of being close to high buildings.

Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed.

Catapedaphobia- Fear of jumping from high and low places.

Cenophobia or Centophobia- Fear of new things

Demonophobia or Daemonophobia- Fear of demons.

Doraphobia- Fear of fur or skins of animals.

Dystychiphobia- Fear of accidents.

Enosiophobia or Enissophobia- Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.

Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old.

Hadephobia- Fear of hell.

Hamartophobia- Fear of sinning.

Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

Lilapsophobia- Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.

Macrophobia- Fear of long waits.

Mechanophobia- Fear of machines.

Noctiphobia- Fear of the night.

Neophobia- Fear of anything new.

Ophthalmophobia- Fear of being stared at.

Pediophobia- Fear of dolls.

Peniaphobia- Fear of poverty.

Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love.

Pocrescophobia- Fear of gaining weight. (Obesophobia)

Poinephobia- Fear of punishment.

Satanophobia- Fear of Satan.

Social Phobia- Fear of being evaluated negatively in social situations.

Zelophobia- Fear of jealousy.

so?

if you're going to try and be my friend, there are some things you should know about me.

1. i ask "what?" a lot

2. i trip...a lot

3. i hate gym. and sports.

4. i obsess over things

5. im not the brightest crayola in the box

6. i act high around 11:30 at night

7. i fail a lot

8. im not good at spanish

9. i dont cry when i get hurt physically.

10. if you're realllll cool, you'd buy me food. ;D

11. i love CHICKEN my god its like...amazing

12. obsessed with the computerr.

13. im addicted to chapstick

and last;

14. i love mudkipz.

so, if any of those things are something you hate, you wouldn't wanna be my friend.

have fun with your life. xD

rough, tough, tired, worn.

i didn't get much sleep last night.

laid in bed for 3 hours, tossing and turning.

and when i finally fell asleep, my dad came home and the dogs woke me up.

im very. very tired.

when one friend is acting weird, they all are.

but i kinda knew she didn't like me that much anyway, so whateverr.

i don't care anymore.

i feel gross.

i couldnt find anything to wear this morning so i just threw something on.

i had to put my makeup on in the car.

yuck.

im trying to drink a gallon of water everyday. its working fine, i guess.

except i have to pee...a lot.

xD

i wish i could play music

i wish life was a song

i wish i could fly away

i wish that you were wrong.

bye

and i am in love

"I guess i'll just get it out now..." he said, "i love you. and i have for quite some time now. and it kills me to see you like this, worried over another guy. i want you to be worried over me. im sorry im putting this out here so fast, but i have to get it out. even if you get afraid of me, i don't care. i love you. im in love with you. you're beautiful and...just amazing. i cant imagine not being friends with you. i know what was missing now, and it was you. so, please, just...if you don't feel the same just leave,"

i blinked a few times, not understanding what i was hearing. did he just tell me he loved me? yes. do i love him? maybe. i needed time to think. but i was making him wait. i felt paranoid. what if it didn't work? i stared at the ground, now, sighing. 

do i love him? maybe. do i love him? maybe. do i love him? ...yes, yes i do love him. so i looked up, tears in my eyes, and sniffed. he looked so confused. 

and all i could do was hug him and sob. happiness overwhelmed me. he hugged me back, and i could tell he was smiling. 

and even if it all went downhill from here, i didn't care. even if we werent meant to be, it was okay. because i was happy at that moment, and i felt as if everything was right. 

and i cried because my ex-boyfriend was just a memory. he didn't matter anymore. 

i had the boy in my arms, and its all i needed.

and i truely did love him.

friends.

friends are hard.

its complicated to keep them.

its even more so to make them.

i always wonder,

did i make the right choice in becoming friends with these people?

my answer is always;

yes. yes i did.

so amazing.

so today was amazing. first, the hot french boy was like...in my art class. and he complimented my mask ;D krystal likes the other "hot" boy that zack has. i think.

and during social studies i started laughing.

then katie started laughing.

and so....we were laughing.

then zack said dyke

and we laughed so hard we cried.

<3

...and thats all XD

bye

happiness

Happiness is:

A state of well-being characterised by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy


why cant we all just be happy?
my god.
i mean, im sad sometimes. but srsly, you don't need to be crying every single effing day.
attention seekers piss the HELL out of me.
i want to stab someone.