hai blogger

i miss you

sipping that last drop of water

i smile to the sun

and see the reflection of the heavens in my empty cup

..

savanna sorta san fran cisco says (8:24 PM):

*mhm

*have you ever had a friend where no matter how stupid her problems are, she gets all the sympathy, and then when you're sad, no one cares?

confessions

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS

[x] Talked back to a teacher.

[] Been kicked out of a class.

[x] Worn your pajamas to school.

[x] Had your tooth fall out during school.

[x] Gotten yourself lost in your school.

[x] Broken the dress code in your school.

[x] Completely and utterly failed a test.

[x] Left your class without asking anybody.

[ ] Missed a whole week of school for something stupid.

[x] Thrown up your lunch in school.

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS

[] Argue with your parents a lot.

[] Argue with your brother[s] a lot.

[ ] Argue with your sister[s] a lot.

[x] Do your own laundry.

[x] Cook dinner once in a while.

[ x] Are loud and obnoxious at home.

[x] Wear pajamas when you are not going to go anywhere

[x] You sleep in very long.

[x] All you do is watch television/go on the internet.

[ ] Your parents are divorced.

[ x] Your family makes you cry a lot

[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.

[x] You can’t stand being with your parents.

FRIEND CONFESSIONS

[x] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.

[x] You are jealous of one or more of your friends.

[x] You have known a friend your whole life.

[] Your friends are all taller than you.

[x] You have been ditched by a friend.

[x] You have memorized a friends phone number.

[x] You have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.

[x] You have been to most of your friends houses.

[x] You love most of your friends

HABIT CONFESSIONS

[x] You bite your nails.

[] You have an odd obsession with knives.

[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed.

[x] You cannot sleep with the door open

[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.

[xxxxxx ] You write stories about mad cannibalistic serial killers

[x] You are good at telling lies

LOVE CONFESSIONS

[x] You currently like/love someone.

[] You want to kill one of your exs.

[x] You can stay committed for an unusually long time

[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily.

[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.

[x] Your ex has dumped you for another girl.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS

[x] You hate George Bush.

[] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.

[x] Gay marriage is fine by you.

[x] Boys make better friends than girls do.

[ ] Pink is an ugly color.

[x] Needles aren’t so horrible.

[ ] Human flesh tastes like fine aged veal

[x] You have plenty of secrets

“HAVE YOU EVER” CONFESSIONS

[x] Fallen up the stairs.

[x] Had your shoelaces tied together.

[ ]Had a nail fall off.

[ ] Captured, Manipulated, or Destroyed a soul.

[x] Slapped someone across the face.

[ ] Killed someone.

[x]Worn something inside out for a whole day

liz says (7:54 PM):

*i just feel so

*suffocated

savanna sorta san fran cisco says (7:54 PM):

*oh

liz says (7:54 PM):

*and like

*slowly

*my life is being torn apart

savanna sorta san fran cisco says (7:54 PM):

*oh

liz says (7:55 PM):

*my mom and my dad just keep fighting

*and my mom is just so sick

*i try to be happy

*i really do

liz says (7:57 PM):

*and i cant get advice from anyone

*because no one knows what to say.

*and im still waiting for that one person who has actually been in my place

liz says (7:58 PM):

*and understands everything and can pull me through the dark

and you cant say anything else

because no one understands

and i really just want a man-hug

sometimes

i think that really is the only reason you like me ._.

hikkis guide to living/other things;

1. you must have a blog. even if you don't use it. get one. tumblr, blogger, whatever.

2. scream at kids on a daily basis. its fun.

3. stay back at least once. you seem hardcore.

4. have at least one celeb crush.

5. write a rather long fanfic.

6. have people read the fanfic.

7. allow people to spread rumors about you. especially when they're ones about you being lesbian. :3

8. find a 'friend-with-little-benefits', such as krystal, who can poke my boobs and pull up my pants whenever she wants.

9. get obsessed with something.

10. love mudkipz.

WHAT HIKKI WANTS TO DO BEFORE SHE DIES -

- fall in love. of course.

- travel the world.

- go on a road trip across the whole country.

- write a novel.

- eat the best ice cream ever.

- meet an internet friend in real life.

- laugh when i'm drinking milk so it comes out of my nose. [ik. strange. BUT ITS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE]

- meet ryan ross

- meet andy six.

- live in the country.

- live in the city.

- have something horrible happen, then have someone else make it all better.

- have a discussion with a random person on the metro.

- bake something that turns out really gross. XD

- get a song written for me

- save someone's life.

my blog is so worthless

i should actually make one that people will read

"cause im making things hard and you were trying to help"

YEAH i hate when people do that

okay bye

holy fuck

i have fucking problems too

why does being young have to be so hard

i miss you and i want you to come back and i dont care if we're fucking young i just want to feel loved like i did once again. i want you to help me with my math homework that i was always failing. and i want you to tell me that when we can drive we'll go to the city with all our church friends. i want your friendship more than anything, if only i had that again i could deal with all this shit. because you understood me more than anyone. you had the same problems. we could cry together.

but no, you fucking left me. i dont know why. i cant tell anyone my feelings cause they don't understand. but you were my best fucking friend and it just hurts to see you all the time at the mall and not be able to talk to you.

i could talk to you. but you're always with that girl. do you even like her? or are you sad too? i dont quite understand any of this.

once upon a time we were telling stories of our school days but now you've blocked me on aim and you don't answer my calls. you dont even answer when i call from my friends phones. i dont get it.

what happened? i know im not the prettiest or nicest or smartest but you weren't perfect either. that was a lie. you were.

and i don't want the world to see me cause i dont think that they'd understand when everythings made to be broken i just want you to ANSWER MY FUCKING CALLS ASSHOLE.

i hate you because you've put this giant burden upon me. you told everyone "its cause i want her to be happy" because you thought you were hurting me with all the fighting but NO YOU HURT ME MORE BY JUST FUCKING IGNORING ME.

and its been so long but i cant get over the fact you left everything behind and just moved on so fast.

i just want to cuss you out.

i cant take this pain much longer. you used to make me feel better about my family problems and shit.

"OH BUT LIZ YOU HAVE NO PROBLEMS"

hah fuck.

i miss the stars and the cars and the dogs and the walks down to the beach and the showing me music and the hills and the flowers and the lights and the "what the hellsky!" and the clouds.

i miss it all and i want it back.

i love you

blogger, you've been with me for a long time now

and i adore you

i will never switch over to tumblr

and i will use you as long as a i live.

or as long as you're around

i hope you dont leave me

because i love to write random posts to you

i like to spill my guts to you

i love you

lmao

this is my fucking 100th post.

holy shit.

almost to 100 posts

liek, holy shet.

if thi- oh i already said that nevermind.

i wish i had an interesting blog.

if this was my tumblr

my popularity would be 70000000000

so uh

ellie is here

we like to partay

i like to listen to music when shes talking to me

yyeeaaaaaahhhh

ellie;HOWDYY

we're on the phone with kry. all there is be yelling, and swearing. FUN. <3

i had something to write here

but then i forgot. :/

i am small

and needy. warm me up, and breath me.

hello there blogger.

it is like, october 6th or somethin. oh its the 5th. I WAS CLOSE.

i missed school today cause i didnt sleep. at all. it was weird. i was like,

"oh look, its 4:30. im still awake. shet."

so yeah!

halloween. im being a vampire.

so imma give myself a joker scar. and put on really pale foundation. and lots of eyeliner. and black skinny jeans and a black button up.

yeah interesting, i know.

this is like the longest post i have made in a long time. i guess that doesnt really matter because no one follows me. so its all gooood. <3

bye. bye.

eh

gym. i hate it. kill it.

please dont come, monday.

wow i just kinda typed this. i didnt write it though.

i open my lungs dear

i sing this song a funerals, no rush

these lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush

a baby boy you've held so tightly

this pain it visits almost nightly

missing hotel beds

i feel your touch.

i will wait, dear

a patient of eternity, my crush.

a universal still, no rust.

no dust will grow on this frame

one million years i will say your name

i love you more than i can ever scream

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you as i left you

regrets still hold my hollow head

i promised you i will see you again

i sit here and smile dear

i smile because i think of you and blush

these bleeding hollow dials, this fuss

a fuss is made of miles and travels, when roadways are but stones and gravel

a bleeding heart can conquer every crutch

we booked our flight those years ago

you loved me as you left me

regrets still hold your saddened head

but i promised you i will see you

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you and i left you

regrets no longer in my head

i promised you i will see you again.

:]

im glad you understand me, blogger.

especially when no one else does. :]

childish

thats all you are.

im not alone

thank god.

9988.) I know you're my best friend, but everytime you go on a rant about what a load of rubbish God and religion is, I seriously consider never talking to you again. Religion saved my life a few years ago. And if you don't appreciate religion, it feels like you don't appreciate my existence.

im not sorry,

theres nothing to say.

hello blogger. it is 5:17 pm. i have only been awake 4 hours.

oh god, how i do miss summer.

school is okay. fun, i guess.

schedule is confusing, though.

and i miss all my friends! xD

kaelie's in most of my classes <3

i only see krystal last period, though.

"this is the wheel. it is pir. it looks like a hat, but its a tapeworm. and....why is it red?!" 

<33333

good year? i hope so.

i want a roadtrip around the country. RIGHT NOW. texas! 

lmao

You: ohmygod.

You: so like

You: i know this boy

You: and i love him

You: but

You: he hates me

You: what do i do

Stranger: awww

Stranger: thtss suckyy

Stranger: kick him in the balls

You: but

You: i know how that feels

You: not good.

You: and.

Stranger: eww

You: i love him.

Stranger: wtf?

You: i dont wanna kick him

You: WHAT DO YOU MEAN WTF

You: IM JUST

You: A BOY

Stranger: how do yuhh kno how gettin kicked in the balls feels?

Stranger: ohh

Stranger: lol

Stranger: kool!!

Stranger: ive alwayss wanted a gayy friend!

You: :D

You: but

You: but

You: he hates me

You: causee im gay

Stranger: ohhhh

Stranger: hess not gay?

You: well

You: i dont know

You: he may be just trying to hide it O:

Stranger: ohhh lmaoo

You: cause all his friends would hate him

You: they're jockkss

Stranger: ohh i seee

You: yes

You: we were best friends

Stranger: awww thtss suckyy did he alwayss kno yuh were gay?

You: no

You: i just came out of the closet

You: yesterday

Stranger: ohh thtsss kool!

You: my dad doesnt think so

You: ):

Stranger: awww

Stranger: im cool with it

Stranger: i luv gayy guyss theyree so nice!

You: lol

Stranger: ksoo did yuh tell him yuh likedd him?

You: yes

You: i was like

You: "im gay"

You: and he was like

You: WHAT

You: and i was like

You: "yeah."

You: sept

You: it was better than that

Stranger: ohh ohkk ...doess he dress as well as yuh?

You: ..i dunno

You: im a nudist.

Stranger: uhmmm intrestinn

Stranger: rub yuhr dick n him and c whut he doess

You: i would

You: but

You: hes not a nudist.

Stranger: waitt so yuh just walk aroundd nude all day?

You: well

You: i wear

You: a blanket

Stranger: y????

You: cause you know

You: ...

You: small penis

Stranger: awww

Stranger: isntt tht againsst the laww to go aroundd nude??

You: i live in a nudist came

You: camp

You: lol

Stranger: wth?

Stranger: where do theyy ave those??

You: in texas

Stranger: uhmmm ohkk ?

Stranger: so

You: he came an visited me

You: every day

Stranger: awww he likees yuh!!

You: i dont think so

You: not anymore

You: at least

You: i dont know what to think

Stranger: aww call himm

You: ive tried

You: he wont answer

Stranger: andd leave a longg message

Stranger: in his voicemail

You: okay

You: okay im leaving one

Stranger: whut r yuh sayin?/

You: im sorry and stuff

You: and that i must of scared him or something

Stranger: ohkk waitt dont give too much crap

Stranger: tell him yuh love him!!

Stranger: likee on superbadd

You: okay

You: my friend thats with me, shes letting me use the computer, says she loves that movie

You: lol

Stranger: loll ohkk i do too its hilarious

You: okay i ended the message

Stranger: kk

Stranger: noww dont talk to him for a feww dayss

You: what if he calls back

Stranger: then answer

Stranger: but if he doesnt call bakk in like a week or so

You: then im screwed?

Stranger: nahh

Stranger: just call again

Stranger: lmao

You: okay

Stranger: or go to his house

Stranger: with clothes on

You: but his parents dont like me

You: they're abusive

You: kinda

Stranger: well where wuld he be ?

Stranger: go there

You: at football practice

Stranger: yepp so go there with clothess on

You: i gtg

You: we're having a party

You: in a few minutes

You: so

You: thanks

Stranger: kk have funn at nude camp

Stranger: (:

You: i will

You: bye

school.

its nice.

bye.

it was nice to know you, summer 09'.

i wish you could come around again.

what are we going to do next year?

summer 010? wtf. 

KRISTI MAKE A BLOG POST NAO

i know the drill?

oh, fine.

uh..

Wait..

*geTS DoWN XD anD GivEs someONE heAD*

Is that thE driLL?

STOP DOING TH-- nvm i think its sexy

it's like my throat is screaming like a banshie

for LIke

seX

OR SedUCTIon.

HHAAHAHA MUahu XdddDD 

you're ALMOSt gone, you'rE GOOD AS gone.

AUGUST is -- JULy is oVER <3

HMmmM.. We'rE dOING remOtE ASSis-- hahaa asS...

assistance. itS Soooo sexy. cause hikki has a sexy comp

xkindA xD we made a sexy mudkip

and she listened to something about vagi--

vagina licking frenzy, yes

NAKED LUNCH!? OKAY

i wish you could hear it XD ikr xD

i wish i could see some mete..ors...or whatever

meteroids

condoms and dildo

s

same thing.

WOAH OH OH OH

oh oh <3lkdfsgkjkldfjg;lkdfkjhdkljg;lk

S:EX XD

this is interesting cause you dont know wtf is happening;

and im saying this to you DEAR readDEErRr Capssss. xS

;kds;lgj'

;d

lmfao.oo..LMFAOO.

):

o like xDDDD I DONT KNOW

ok  s

pool side stripped down and the cops chased us again

i dont even like we the kings that much

i thiknnk----- j-sdf- fy ou;D---- your mom does oh

kay so now that wE HAVE STUPPPPDIIgdlkds anyway

now that we have thAt ...... D:

now that we hve dfklgi;a sldkgjlk sjgkdsg;lj dslkgjaklds,j; ;aldsjg lkajgsl kjgsl

NVM. XD

brAndon uriNe ...

i'm such a slow tYPER compared to you

i dont have my glasses on

:O

bad  naughty girl mmmm<3333

uh tha--- nvm.

;Dyay awayayayayyaayayayayyyayayyayyayayayayyaayayyayyaayyaayyaayyaayyayayayaayyayyayayayyayayayyayyayyaayayayudyayayyayymauydayakyiyayapyzya

yayyayayayymayuadyayyyaiyyayayaiyayzyayamudipz  -

-x DODHD XDD

WATCH MY VOLUME GO UPP

okay.

;D

xD

so

how bout them phillies.

how bout them........sdexidildos

XDDUDDD.

..O.M.G. ...t.ha txs ldike a combination of sex and dildos. ahahaha

so like

hayley williams has a shirt

wi -- haha shit.

with the philadelphia flyers...phr-- I DONT GIVE

but your girlfriend does. GIVES HEAD OHHHH

 ijust made that up zomg

"Eri  ;DDDD

X"DEDDRDDDDDDD

so like

who made that up 

anyway

did you?

yes xD

i said it to her the day befrfisfjk BEFORE he went there

nicee

you're such a nice friend. XDD

xDDD

NAYWAY

-publishes-

wishes.

we all have so many wishess.

i know i have more than i can possibly type.

i very dearly want my wish to come true so im posting this;

GO TO THIS SITE... this is amazing  http://www.real-wishes.com

make a wish

it prolly wont come true >>

(null) :3

3753.) I'm in love with famous people. I don't think I'll ever be in love with someone other than them. I am determined that one of them will fall in love with me and we'll live happily in California.

- - - 

3737.) i'm always afraid that one day, my dad will drink again. and that one day, he won't be there.

i wish my dad would stop drinking. ^'

------

i love the valley oh - xiu xiu

fast car - xiu xiu

okay, i believe you but my tommy gun sure don't - brand new

the word 'best friend' become redefined - chiodos

i hate this.

difficulty remembering and making decisions. decreased energy and fatigue. feeling gulity, worthless, helpless, and hopeless. excessive sleeping or under sleeping. restlessness and irritability. loss of interest in hobbies that are enjoyable. overeating or appetite loss. aches or pains,  headaches, cramps. sad, anxious, or empty feelings. thoughts of suicide or hurting yourself.

i know it all, savanna.

:/

mood charts dont help

they make it worse

people make me sad.

summer

its almost over D:

okay, i believe you.

i am the cause to all your problems, shelter from cold. we are never alone. coordinate brain and mouth. then ask me whats it like to have myself so figured out.

i wish i knew..

hello. i am here today to say i do not like summer. why? its lonley. especially when you only have 4 friends...scratch that, i have 6.

brand new is amazing. emazing. way too great.

savanna is back. i love her. <3

life is good?

style doesn't matter when you're on your back.

hello. today i have attempted to make up a witty comment and work off of that, but no, unfortunately that will not happen.

however, i do have a less-than-interesting story about today!

i went to my aunt's for no reason, and hung out with ruby and margo's baby, hayley. found out that hayley cannot eat cheeseburgers, or watch yo gabba gabba. 

guess what? we fed her a cheeseburger and let her watch yo gabba gabba. woops. ;D

we went back to mass, and picked up our car. it got a new paint job and they fixed the mirrors so now we can see! yay! 

and i vacuumed the car for the first time in my life, lmao.

i realized that people really aren't fair, and that margo needs to stop being such an overprotective bitch. 

ruby's 5 ft something, right? margo wouldn't let her sit in the front seat because the law is you have to be 13 or older to ride in the front.

its like WTF she was fucking squished back there!

whatever. love you all.

birthday!

'twas fun. too lazy to blog about it. but i will.

i wanna go ride on the motorcycle again!

my gramma thinks i like the gay brothers. ughh.

I WANT MY MONEY BACK, YOU BITCH.

i love this song and its all like...i forgot. but its old. 

EPIC FAIL, LIZ.

im sorry im so random.

HALLELUJAH <- i had to use spell check, sorry god/jesus/everyone. >>

/8tracks.com/loveYOUmore/ wonder if that'll work.

but you don't really care for music, do you?

well it goes like this, the 4th the 5th.

the minor fall and the major lift.

summer ends soon

not good.

i love indiana

thats all i can say.

hi

im making this post at 2:35 AM

dont tell my mom im still awake

its time to pretend

sleeping 13 hours

wearing a blanket in summer? not good.

hail 2 or 3 days ago. i can't remember.

i think today is monday. i dont know >>

indiana thursday.

having lunch with people i havent seen in ages tomorrow...if today is monday.

playlists with happiness makes me happy

even though its sad

today isnt monday, is it?

reading 2 books this summer. kay. 

i need an ipod but im getting a camera.

billy mays. 

thanks, 

i know, i know.

everyones talking about it, so i wont mention it.

just...

restinpeace<3

yeah.

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69

69

69

69

69

69

69

69

69

69

yay

schools out. o.O

4 more.

four more days until summer.

she's never on anymore, 

so i'm not very excited.

god, why doesn't she just call? :/

boyfriends suck. they take away your friends.

66 posts? gross.

i wish

i wish, i were a fish.

hello. i had an exciting weekend. 

summer?

holy cow.

where did the school year go?

it almost makes me want to cry.

he doesnt know

i pulled off each petal slowly, muttering the same words over and over.

"he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me...he loves me not,"

as i dropped the fifth naked flower on the ground, i sighed. i knew already.

my so called "friends" told me it would never be true. they plowed the cold, harsh fact upon me that he'd never show the same feelings for me. 

i sat down, slowly, staring at the trees around the meadow i was in. 

its not easy to let things go. 

good day.

1. got the sims 3....well that was yesterday.

2.. maybe going to a patd concert with kaelie.

3. hit a homerun in gym. ;D

4. the "evil" people are now nice to me, meaning they are no longer "evil".

you dont know what you've got until its gone

that isnt true for me.

im so afraid to grow up. im so afraid of my parents dying. im afraid of me dying. im so afraid to leave my youth behind.

im afraid of change.

i love my life. i do. i dont want it to change.

i think about this like...every night. 

worst feeling in the world.

"well, hikki, you're too young to think about this!"

whatever.

i love my parents.

cause if you boys are nice

the ladies here are clean.

hello. obsessed with the dear hunter. i blame bethany and ruby lmao. D:

walked like 5 miles today on this gay thing at school.

forgot to do my science lab + spanish test. 

so im screwed.

finals soon. shiz. cant wait until summer.

im super tired. and hungry. ugh.

<3

she danced to the doors

endearing, she carried me. whats your name? conceding, ms. leading. she kindly suggests to her room to rest my head, so i smiled responding unalarming yes

<3

people are asses.

beware; vent.

okay, what the hell has society done NOW? do people REALLLYY think its funny to watch someone, who was already sad, make a fool of themselves? do they REALLY like to laugh at people and make them feel like shit? 

newsflash.

YOURE JUST AN ASSHOLE WHO DESERVES TO PERISH IN HELL. 

if you're one of those bitches that like to make people cry, i have something to tell you.

no. one. likes. you.

sorry, but its true. those "friends" you have? yeah, they only pretend cause they think they'll be cool if they hang out with you. 

they aren't though. cause you're really not cool. at all. you're just an ass.

go die.

i hate the world.

dream.

it was cold. i was shivering. the car windows were covered in ice.

i looked around, pulling my hoodie closer to my skin. stupid snow.

i shoved the key in the ignition and tried to turn on the truck. it made a noise like, "vrrooooo pew pew pow!" and then started. i turned on the heat full blast.

the ice on the window made the car dark, so i turned on the defrost and the window wipers. only a small chunk came off before they stopped and couldn't go anymore. i sighed.

through the small piece of glass that wasnt covered i could see the house, with the snowman  had made. the trees shuttered in the wind, maybe shivering from the cold like i had done.

suddenly i heard a banging on the window on the far side of the truck. i looked over, and quickly locked the doors. some of the ice got wiped away, and a piece of paper with writing on it pressed against the glass. 

the title was called "forgetting the mess".

i scooted over slowly to the door, confused, and pulled on the handle to open it. when i did so, no one was there. the paper slowly flew into the car. 

i closed the door and locked it again.

scared, i scrambled around to find the piece of paper. it was under the seat.

i picked it up and read it. it was song lyrics.

beautiful song lyrics.

the meaning of us.

before i left for the night, you told me you were having trouble breathing. i said we'll worry about it tommorow, and kissed you. and before i stepped into the car, i looked at you and noticed you had tears falling down your cheeks. at that moment, i knew you knew where i was going. but i needed to leave.

when i got home in the morning, i called your name. usually you'd be up all night, worrying about me and when i pulled the car in the driveway you'd run outside and hug me. but not today. 

when you didnt answer, i began to worry. i ran through the house, trying to find you. you weren't there.

and all i found was a note that said,

"sorry,"

and i wept for hours.

i continued leaving at night, getting drunk and having sex with strangers. it was the only thing that kept me from thinking about you. i wondered where you were every day, and before i passed out you were the first thing on my mind. i'd wake up crying for you.

i finally went off to find you. i called all your family and drove around the country. 

and thats when i found you in a small town in pensylvania.

i ran to you, calling your name. all you did was look at me. it was like you didnt know who i was. 

when i tried to hug you, you turned away. my heart shattered.

"i was looking for you for the longest time," i said, trying not to cry.

you didnt say anything for a while, you just looked in my eyes.

"you shouldnt of left me," you said. i didnt understand at first, you were the one that left me.

but then i realized that i ruined what we had.

on the news that night you heard about a man who had hung himself. 

and the man in the picture was me.

my ideal saturday night

sitting around, acting like hookers on imvu, and screaming to build me up buttercup.

this is what i call happiness.

nyc2

nyc

PRETTYY RADD.

i was pretty bored, though.

i need to just go with like my mom or something.

that'd be much better.

when you're sad, im sad.

and that is how it is.

hello everyone.

mothers day is right around the corner,

wasnt it just valentines day? 

i cannot believe how fast life has been.

its like, one moment its christmas break the next it's spring break.

seriously, wow.

isn't life just going away too fast?

im so young, but i feel like life has just passed by.

i miss being little.

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ruby's here

shes on imvu

and im just...like...being bored.

new shirt ordered;

http://theunlikelycandidates.bigcartel.com/product/penguin-shirt

it comes with a free cd. how win is that?

getting lost.

had to get a new laptop charger.

went to best buy, avoiding traffic.

went to taco bell to go pee.

we got out of taco bell, thinking we were avoiding traffic, but when we turned on the highway we hit....TRAFFIC.

were there for like an hour. waiting.

called krystal cause i was bored.

took a detour. 

got lost...and went all the way to a far away town.

took 2 more hours but

finally got unlost(thanks to my directions) and came home.

how fun.

i am living.

after all these months, i am finally living.

hello everyone. it was a hot day today. too hot to function. my friend doesn't know that im angry at her. i dont feel like telling her, either. she wouldn't understand.

she SHOULD understand.

i wish they'd all understand.

whatever. its okay. 

i swear one of them is going to read this and im going to get all these questions like

"OMG IS IT MEE?"

no, it is not you. or maybe it is. you'll just have to find out by yourself. 

im doing better; or atleast i hope i am. i feel happier. and nicer. and calmer. thank you.

and you know, you could stop talking about yourself for just a moment. and relax.

i hope you don't think im talking about you.

and i hope you know who you are. 

i love you all.

and i love life.

and i love music.

and i love the fact my eyes remind me of mudkips.

bye bye.

where i've been

sunday;

went to the wake for Melissa's mom. was really sad, i ended up crying a little.

but then we went to a birthday party near a lake. 

there was a playscape and we scared all the little kids off of it (me and kaelie) 

then laid down and nearly fell asleep. it was so much fun.

we stood in the freezing water for a little, then went and ate cake and listened to roger's beautiful music.

aka; it horribly sucked, but it was hilarious.

today;

went to the church after missy's mom's burial and we sang christian songs and had a lot of fun

then ate food and hugged missy. :3

then we went to the mall and i got capri's for tomorrow because its supposed to be really warm.

im officially pissed at khols for having small sizes.

cause really, no one is skinny anymore. XD

we're so lucky to have people alive with us.

even if we have lost many in our lives, we gain all the time.

and even when the world is crashing all around you, your friends are there to help hold it up so it doesn't crush your face. :)

ily missy

sadness.

thats all im feeling today.

deep, deep feelings that cannot be explained.

what is wrong with me? i don't need to be sad? im not depressed.

i just feel so...

sad.

music..

http://www.myspace.com/danielphotopants

his music makes my heart hurt.

i love it.

im such a sad person. 

crawling under a rock sounds fun right now.

death

it really isn't funny, nor something you should look forward to.

don't wish death upon people.

life is something to cherish.

i know many people don't think of it that way.

even if you don't think anyone is going to miss you,

someone out there will.

life is amazing. love it, live it, cherish it.

bye.

im like telling everyone this.

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and that is what you call WIN

holy snickerdoodles!

and THAT is how you create a snickerdoodle.

but now my belly hurts!

oh well, it was DEFIANTLY worth it.

"creativity blooms in small rooms"

but my imagination is larger than life.

hikki is currently;

rolled over in pain because of cramps

listening to panic at the disco

laughing at what a friend told her

looking at an im

and wishing she was back at school.

it keeps her mind off everything.

school tomorrow

vacation went by wayy too fast.

i think i've changed a lot. 

i can't wait until i get rid of most of my clothes and go shopping to get more. :]

i'll talk to everyone tomorrow.

or later.

whatever is best.

bye bye.

sticky note

so in the car i randomly had a wanting feeling.

so i wrote down two random thoughts.

have a good day.

oh and btww

i love this video more than life

straw

and i put this here because it was in my crayon box.

that is so, so weird.

opinions

My name may not be important to you, or it may, but whatever the case I am going to tell you. So you may be thrilled, or disgusted, but I do not care. My name is Katie, Katie Anderson, and I am 23 years old. Some say I am beautiful, but some say I look like I have been stepped on by a rather large horse. But I do not care about my looks because it is the inside that counts, or thats what all my teachers had told me in grade school. I also believe this because it seems no one is attracted to my appearance. Or maybe it is just that I do not pay enough attention to what people think of me to notice. But this does not matter anyway, because that is not the point of the words I am writing. You see, ever since I was a little girl, I always had my mind set on being the best. In preschool I would spend hours on my art projects, making the other young kids jealous of my work. In 3rd grade, I can remember how we did a project where we had to read the book Lady Lollipop and answer a packet of questions. On the first day it was assigned, I read the whole book and answered all the questions. I even made a posterboard for the book for extra credit. And now that I am 23 and I have a job, I am still focused on being the greatest. When I am assigned work, I am quick to get it done. I spend hours making changes on things that I have written. And for some reason, doing this makes people dislike me. I do not know why, for I am really not a bad person. Or maybe I am, but I do not pay enough attention to people's critisizm to understand. So I spend each and every day working, doing the best I possibly could. Well, I could do better I am sure, but I choose not to. I do not know why. The only friend I have now that I talk to is a woman named Angela Thompson, who has just turned 59. You may not care about this woman at all, and you may of stopped reading when you read her name, but I do not care. For I am only writing this for people who want to apprehend. Angela has many diseases, which she takes pills for. I will not tell you these ailments, because I do not think she would like this very much. But I will tell you that she has to take 34 pills every morning, and another 12 at night. She has many problems, as so do I, and so we discuss these botherations over mugs of tea. You my not like tea, or mugs, or botherations, but I do not care about your opinions, for I have my own. And you may not like the words I am writing, but I still do not worry about your assumption, because I have my own. So, the moral of this story, which you may not care about, or you may want to know very much, is that you should never do more than you have to all the time. The result of this will be people hating you more than they probably should. If you disagree, and think that people should always do more than told, then I do not care because we all have our own opinions, and some are awry and others favorable. Most of my opinions are right.