wow i just kinda typed this. i didnt write it though.

i open my lungs dear

i sing this song a funerals, no rush

these lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush

a baby boy you've held so tightly

this pain it visits almost nightly

missing hotel beds

i feel your touch.

i will wait, dear

a patient of eternity, my crush.

a universal still, no rust.

no dust will grow on this frame

one million years i will say your name

i love you more than i can ever scream

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you as i left you

regrets still hold my hollow head

i promised you i will see you again

i sit here and smile dear

i smile because i think of you and blush

these bleeding hollow dials, this fuss

a fuss is made of miles and travels, when roadways are but stones and gravel

a bleeding heart can conquer every crutch

we booked our flight those years ago

you loved me as you left me

regrets still hold your saddened head

but i promised you i will see you

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you and i left you

regrets no longer in my head

i promised you i will see you again.

:]

im glad you understand me, blogger.

especially when no one else does. :]

childish

thats all you are.

im not alone

thank god.

9988.) I know you're my best friend, but everytime you go on a rant about what a load of rubbish God and religion is, I seriously consider never talking to you again. Religion saved my life a few years ago. And if you don't appreciate religion, it feels like you don't appreciate my existence.

im not sorry,

theres nothing to say.

hello blogger. it is 5:17 pm. i have only been awake 4 hours.

oh god, how i do miss summer.

school is okay. fun, i guess.

schedule is confusing, though.

and i miss all my friends! xD

kaelie's in most of my classes <3

i only see krystal last period, though.

"this is the wheel. it is pir. it looks like a hat, but its a tapeworm. and....why is it red?!" 

<33333

good year? i hope so.

i want a roadtrip around the country. RIGHT NOW. texas! 

lmao

You: ohmygod.

You: so like

You: i know this boy

You: and i love him

You: but

You: he hates me

You: what do i do

Stranger: awww

Stranger: thtss suckyy

Stranger: kick him in the balls

You: but

You: i know how that feels

You: not good.

You: and.

Stranger: eww

You: i love him.

Stranger: wtf?

You: i dont wanna kick him

You: WHAT DO YOU MEAN WTF

You: IM JUST

You: A BOY

Stranger: how do yuhh kno how gettin kicked in the balls feels?

Stranger: ohh

Stranger: lol

Stranger: kool!!

Stranger: ive alwayss wanted a gayy friend!

You: :D

You: but

You: but

You: he hates me

You: causee im gay

Stranger: ohhhh

Stranger: hess not gay?

You: well

You: i dont know

You: he may be just trying to hide it O:

Stranger: ohhh lmaoo

You: cause all his friends would hate him

You: they're jockkss

Stranger: ohh i seee

You: yes

You: we were best friends

Stranger: awww thtss suckyy did he alwayss kno yuh were gay?

You: no

You: i just came out of the closet

You: yesterday

Stranger: ohh thtsss kool!

You: my dad doesnt think so

You: ):

Stranger: awww

Stranger: im cool with it

Stranger: i luv gayy guyss theyree so nice!

You: lol

Stranger: ksoo did yuh tell him yuh likedd him?

You: yes

You: i was like

You: "im gay"

You: and he was like

You: WHAT

You: and i was like

You: "yeah."

You: sept

You: it was better than that

Stranger: ohh ohkk ...doess he dress as well as yuh?

You: ..i dunno

You: im a nudist.

Stranger: uhmmm intrestinn

Stranger: rub yuhr dick n him and c whut he doess

You: i would

You: but

You: hes not a nudist.

Stranger: waitt so yuh just walk aroundd nude all day?

You: well

You: i wear

You: a blanket

Stranger: y????

You: cause you know

You: ...

You: small penis

Stranger: awww

Stranger: isntt tht againsst the laww to go aroundd nude??

You: i live in a nudist came

You: camp

You: lol

Stranger: wth?

Stranger: where do theyy ave those??

You: in texas

Stranger: uhmmm ohkk ?

Stranger: so

You: he came an visited me

You: every day

Stranger: awww he likees yuh!!

You: i dont think so

You: not anymore

You: at least

You: i dont know what to think

Stranger: aww call himm

You: ive tried

You: he wont answer

Stranger: andd leave a longg message

Stranger: in his voicemail

You: okay

You: okay im leaving one

Stranger: whut r yuh sayin?/

You: im sorry and stuff

You: and that i must of scared him or something

Stranger: ohkk waitt dont give too much crap

Stranger: tell him yuh love him!!

Stranger: likee on superbadd

You: okay

You: my friend thats with me, shes letting me use the computer, says she loves that movie

You: lol

Stranger: loll ohkk i do too its hilarious

You: okay i ended the message

Stranger: kk

Stranger: noww dont talk to him for a feww dayss

You: what if he calls back

Stranger: then answer

Stranger: but if he doesnt call bakk in like a week or so

You: then im screwed?

Stranger: nahh

Stranger: just call again

Stranger: lmao

You: okay

Stranger: or go to his house

Stranger: with clothes on

You: but his parents dont like me

You: they're abusive

You: kinda

Stranger: well where wuld he be ?

Stranger: go there

You: at football practice

Stranger: yepp so go there with clothess on

You: i gtg

You: we're having a party

You: in a few minutes

You: so

You: thanks

Stranger: kk have funn at nude camp

Stranger: (:

You: i will

You: bye

school.

its nice.