hikkis guide to living/other things;

1. you must have a blog. even if you don't use it. get one. tumblr, blogger, whatever.

2. scream at kids on a daily basis. its fun.

3. stay back at least once. you seem hardcore.

4. have at least one celeb crush.

5. write a rather long fanfic.

6. have people read the fanfic.

7. allow people to spread rumors about you. especially when they're ones about you being lesbian. :3

8. find a 'friend-with-little-benefits', such as krystal, who can poke my boobs and pull up my pants whenever she wants.

9. get obsessed with something.

10. love mudkipz.

WHAT HIKKI WANTS TO DO BEFORE SHE DIES -

- fall in love. of course.

- travel the world.

- go on a road trip across the whole country.

- write a novel.

- eat the best ice cream ever.

- meet an internet friend in real life.

- laugh when i'm drinking milk so it comes out of my nose. [ik. strange. BUT ITS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE]

- meet ryan ross

- meet andy six.

- live in the country.

- live in the city.

- have something horrible happen, then have someone else make it all better.

- have a discussion with a random person on the metro.

- bake something that turns out really gross. XD

- get a song written for me

- save someone's life.

my blog is so worthless

i should actually make one that people will read

"cause im making things hard and you were trying to help"

YEAH i hate when people do that

okay bye

holy fuck

i have fucking problems too

why does being young have to be so hard

i miss you and i want you to come back and i dont care if we're fucking young i just want to feel loved like i did once again. i want you to help me with my math homework that i was always failing. and i want you to tell me that when we can drive we'll go to the city with all our church friends. i want your friendship more than anything, if only i had that again i could deal with all this shit. because you understood me more than anyone. you had the same problems. we could cry together.

but no, you fucking left me. i dont know why. i cant tell anyone my feelings cause they don't understand. but you were my best fucking friend and it just hurts to see you all the time at the mall and not be able to talk to you.

i could talk to you. but you're always with that girl. do you even like her? or are you sad too? i dont quite understand any of this.

once upon a time we were telling stories of our school days but now you've blocked me on aim and you don't answer my calls. you dont even answer when i call from my friends phones. i dont get it.

what happened? i know im not the prettiest or nicest or smartest but you weren't perfect either. that was a lie. you were.

and i don't want the world to see me cause i dont think that they'd understand when everythings made to be broken i just want you to ANSWER MY FUCKING CALLS ASSHOLE.

i hate you because you've put this giant burden upon me. you told everyone "its cause i want her to be happy" because you thought you were hurting me with all the fighting but NO YOU HURT ME MORE BY JUST FUCKING IGNORING ME.

and its been so long but i cant get over the fact you left everything behind and just moved on so fast.

i just want to cuss you out.

i cant take this pain much longer. you used to make me feel better about my family problems and shit.

"OH BUT LIZ YOU HAVE NO PROBLEMS"

hah fuck.

i miss the stars and the cars and the dogs and the walks down to the beach and the showing me music and the hills and the flowers and the lights and the "what the hellsky!" and the clouds.

i miss it all and i want it back.

i love you

blogger, you've been with me for a long time now

and i adore you

i will never switch over to tumblr

and i will use you as long as a i live.

or as long as you're around

i hope you dont leave me

because i love to write random posts to you

i like to spill my guts to you

i love you

lmao

this is my fucking 100th post.

holy shit.

almost to 100 posts

liek, holy shet.

if thi- oh i already said that nevermind.

i wish i had an interesting blog.

if this was my tumblr

my popularity would be 70000000000

so uh

ellie is here

we like to partay

i like to listen to music when shes talking to me

yyeeaaaaaahhhh

ellie;HOWDYY

we're on the phone with kry. all there is be yelling, and swearing. FUN. <3

i had something to write here

but then i forgot. :/

i am small

and needy. warm me up, and breath me.

hello there blogger.

it is like, october 6th or somethin. oh its the 5th. I WAS CLOSE.

i missed school today cause i didnt sleep. at all. it was weird. i was like,

"oh look, its 4:30. im still awake. shet."

so yeah!

halloween. im being a vampire.

so imma give myself a joker scar. and put on really pale foundation. and lots of eyeliner. and black skinny jeans and a black button up.

yeah interesting, i know.

this is like the longest post i have made in a long time. i guess that doesnt really matter because no one follows me. so its all gooood. <3

bye. bye.

eh

gym. i hate it. kill it.

please dont come, monday.