i had something to write here

but then i forgot. :/

i am small

and needy. warm me up, and breath me.

hello there blogger.

it is like, october 6th or somethin. oh its the 5th. I WAS CLOSE.

i missed school today cause i didnt sleep. at all. it was weird. i was like,

"oh look, its 4:30. im still awake. shet."

so yeah!

halloween. im being a vampire.

so imma give myself a joker scar. and put on really pale foundation. and lots of eyeliner. and black skinny jeans and a black button up.

yeah interesting, i know.

this is like the longest post i have made in a long time. i guess that doesnt really matter because no one follows me. so its all gooood. <3

bye. bye.

eh

gym. i hate it. kill it.

please dont come, monday.

wow i just kinda typed this. i didnt write it though.

i open my lungs dear

i sing this song a funerals, no rush

these lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush

a baby boy you've held so tightly

this pain it visits almost nightly

missing hotel beds

i feel your touch.

i will wait, dear

a patient of eternity, my crush.

a universal still, no rust.

no dust will grow on this frame

one million years i will say your name

i love you more than i can ever scream

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you as i left you

regrets still hold my hollow head

i promised you i will see you again

i sit here and smile dear

i smile because i think of you and blush

these bleeding hollow dials, this fuss

a fuss is made of miles and travels, when roadways are but stones and gravel

a bleeding heart can conquer every crutch

we booked our flight those years ago

you loved me as you left me

regrets still hold your saddened head

but i promised you i will see you

booked our flight those years ago

i said i loved you and i left you

regrets no longer in my head

i promised you i will see you again.

:]

im glad you understand me, blogger.

especially when no one else does. :]

childish

thats all you are.

im not alone

thank god.

9988.) I know you're my best friend, but everytime you go on a rant about what a load of rubbish God and religion is, I seriously consider never talking to you again. Religion saved my life a few years ago. And if you don't appreciate religion, it feels like you don't appreciate my existence.